hello hellooo,

ahh, i should be doing a paper for english since it's due on thursday and i have even started writing it, only brainstormed and yet, i still cannot grasp what i have to write about.. and there's tons of drunk people on my floor right now and mostly every night, drinking and playing BEER PONG?! whats the deal with that mann.. iunnooo.. but now the girls showers are flooding.. you guys have no idea, how disgusting some of these girls are. walking barefeet on the floor, leaving BOOGERS on the wall in the shower stall  and don't even clean up their freaking hair. and SOME OF THEM don't even know how to FLUSH THE GOSH DARN TOILET!! holyyy crackerr, i go into a stall, and what do i see? blood in the toilet, yes the perfect morning image i have to deal with for 6 days straight. and this morning i was in the bathroom before going to dinner with my floormates and roommate and there i see, something in the toilet, so i flush it, but i realized it wasnt toilet paper.. it was a stinking PAD!! holyyyyy..#$%^&*(...

anyways, these past few days has been awesome and fun and filled with total laughter from the people i have met here. but at times, like now i feel so lonely because even though i have technology, i feel so far (and I am quite FAR FROM HOME) from home and the people i care about. especially the people i grew up with and knew for a long.. long time.. sigh* i told my roommate that i was homesick but honestly i never knew how much i was homesick until i started thinking about my family and my friends and broke down crying.. i can say i met more people that i thought i would, and they're only girls. lol amazing, im always surrounded by some guys but i never met one. except the guy who took me to my room the first day i moved in, but he doesnt count.. hah..

anyone heard of the freshman 15? well, believe when i say, im losing more weight than i thought i would. except im not really now since me and my new friends went to walmart and got lots and lots of food.. i have only eatten once a day since all my classes are in the morning till the afternoon and i only eat dinner.. ive been skipping the whole free ice cream because well, i dont want to gain weight that quickly. and it sucks cause, dinner is only from 430-630, so if me and my friends go at 635, we'll have to starve till morning. x.x''

wow, i haven't written this much on the computer for quiteee awhilee though i write essays every month -.-''
i miss all of you and i'll update you soon! i need to start cracking with my essay or i'll become a flunkie =x

GEEZZZ.. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I HAVE WRITTEN IN HERE?!?! like.. FOREVERR. though i have been writing little notes and poems but I have been putting that in private for a few years.... haha

anyways, I'm back and I'm ready to start this thing again! comments anyone?? though I may not get anymore, if you do ever get a chance to read my future passages, I hope you enjoy and leave comments with your own opinions and not just doing it because you want.. 'props'.. like the old days. I'll be trying to catch up on old times on new times and on future times. and I want to try to start new and fresh!

J- You Are....

ill always think of you
even if we're apart..

"Be a little naked once in awhile in life
and maybe, you might just be you."

that was one of my old entries. and i was just remembering that day and what i went through and what i saw in other people and saw myself in a way.
i just want to thank every single one of you, even the people who i dont even talk to anymore, whose been there for me in my ups and downs. in my laughs and tears. because whoever was in my lifetime. from long island, from kindergarden, jhs till now. every single one of you made me who i am now. to better or to worse. im glad i met you. and made me see who i am because you stripped me from my fraud-self.

RIP loving son, brother & friend =']
happy birthday to daniel lee!
almost perfect white rose lies on his grave today